Friday, 29 May 2015

I'm a member of a phenomenal organisation for writers in the UK, called '26', whose stated aim is to

 'open hearts and minds to the wonderful diversity of writing, to savour and enjoy words in all their many guises… and to have some fun.'

One of the ways we do this is through teaming up with others on projects. Last year, I took part in the 26 Atlantic Crossings project, which paired up 26 UK writers with 26 visual artists working in Prince Edward County, Ontario in Canada. I worked with a talented ceramic artist called Andrea Pillar, composing a 62 word 'sestude' in response to her piece 'Spring Vessel'. You can see it here.

Now, I've found out I'm going to be taking part in a brand new project with 26. The 26 Children's Winters project is to be a collaboration between members of 26 and the Museum of Childhood in Edinburgh, Scotland. I'm excited about it, and looking forward to finding out which of the museum's artefacts will be selected for me to write about!  

Thursday, 20 June 2013

Reviewing, translating, and Booktrust

Book Reviewing for Booktrust

In the last six or seven months, I've been reviewing fiction for Booktrust, and this has been one of the most fulfilling things I've done in recent years because it's given me a succession of first rate novels to read, by top literary authors. Here's a list of some:

Jane Rogers Hitting Trees With Sticks 
Andrew Cowan Worthless Men
Amy Sackville Orkney
Maggie O'Farrell Instructions for a Heatwave
Toni Morrison Home
Sarah Butler Ten Things I've Learnt About Love 

Booktrust reviewing has also introduced me to some literature in translation, including Finnish author Kari Hotakainen's The Human Part.

Here's the link to Booktrust's monthly reviews in their 'Books we like' feature.

Adventures in translation

Now, I don't claim any kind of expertise in literary translation - just an interest. I was once accepted as a freelance translator for Unesco's Paris office, believe it or not, shortly after I passed my Institute of Linguists' ELIC Diploma in French (with - incredibly - a distinction for translation!).  I translated one academic paper for Unesco, then heard nothing back from them. In a way, that was a relief, because that work was hard! Nine days to translate twenty-seven pages written by a respected North African academic who was writing in his second language. Translating against the clock meant I couldn't leave the work aside for a while to help me see it with fresh eyes. The whole thing had to be translated - bump - and sent off. I'm filled with admiration for those who can churn out work like that with any polish! Me, I had four children in the house. Nothing in my house had any polish then!

My next sortee into translation was a single short story by French author Mouloud Akkouche. His story Les dents du bonheur appeared in Liberation, and I approached him to ask if I could translate it. He agreed, and Raymond Ross at the Scottish literary magazine Cencrastus accepted it for publication in issue 71 under the title Wisdom Teeth, way back in 2002.  I had a horrible blank moment when I couldn't work out the meaning of one particular phrase. It was too new and edgy to appear in the dictionaries. (And this was in the days before Google.) I had to fill in the blank as best I could! Fortunately, Mouloud liked what I did with his story, and called it 'une bonne traduction'.

Blogging for Booktrust

I've really enjoyed contributing to Booktrust's Translated Fiction blog. I've written two posts for it, so far. The first, in February 2013, considered whether there might be an increase in demand, and a new vivacity, for literature in translation given the influx of people from Poland and other countries of the eastern European Union. You can read 'Eyes East' here.

Anyway, my reason for confessing about the difficulties I encountered with translation is to introduce Donal McLaughlin and the chat we had, for Booktrust, about his work as a translator. Donal will be shaking his head about my botched translation apprenticeship. He's a meticulous worker with the highest standards, and would never have made anything up, I'm sure! Add to this, his great ear and sensitivity to the nuances of language and you'll understand why he's such a respected and sought-after translator - and author! I really enjoyed our discussion.

Booktrust have now posted on their blog the friendly and informative exchange Donal and I had about his work, and I really recommend it. Click on the link to read it - A chat with Donal McLaughlin.

Tuesday, 4 June 2013

Third of June

It was the third of June

Memory, nostalgia and a celebration of life

Maybe it's my Scottish-Irish bloodline, but for some reason, most of my fiction could be classed as 'sad'. A friend said to me, after reading Ordinary Domestic: collected short stories, 'could you not write something happy?'

Genre fiction follows certain conventions, so that someone who starts reading a murder mystery knows, right from the beginning, the story will end with the unveiling of the murderer and the tying up of all the loose ends. In a love story, the reader always expects a happy ending. To interfere with these conventions is to disappoint the reader. 

In literary fiction, these rules don't apply. Instead, the focus is on one individual and his or her inner growth. There might be no great plot; no earthquakes or typhoons to man up against. There might be just the flimsiest inner shift in the character's thinking: a slight change of attitude, or a sudden understanding. Realisation. Literary fiction is also usually 'fine writing', i.e. with much thought given to quality of language. With that in mind, I'll cite, in passing, two of my recent favourites which I reviewed for Booktrust - Amy Sackville's Orkney, and Jane Rogers' Hitting Trees with Sticks.

Perhaps the reason our 'classic' literature (in book form and film) has become classic is because it fuses the two elements: genre and literary.  An outer challenge and an inner realisation.

In 2002, when I was frustrated at being unable to progress with my fiction, I thought hard about what it was that kept my husband Keith glued to the TV. No surprise: the three magic ingredients were a car chase, sex and an edge of violence. So I wrote my short story 'Unrestricted', which went on to win me £500 when it was shortlisted for the final Macallan/Scotland on Sunday Short Story Competition. (Incidentally, the car chase in it is on Playstation.)  'Unrestricted' ends with the young woman on a literal and metaphorical threshold. The story is sad, but the subject is empowerment.

The 'literary' writer is trying to make sense of existence. There's that phrase that's bandied around - 'the human condition'. It concerns the knowledge we have that our lives are finite and pointless, and that we're essentially alone, which sounds a bit bleak. Into the mix, toss in some revelling in the beauty of the natural world and in the company of other people, and that makes it a bit rounder.

This is what I struggle to write. 

I mentioned my Scottish-Irish bloodline. Maybe there's a history of keening in my blood. But I dare say that's no different from any other branch of our race at any time or place on this planet.

Coincidence and the search for meaning

Yesterday was 3rd June. It's a date that's stuck with me since 1967 when Bobbie Gentry had a hit with her song, 'Ode to Billie Joe' whose lyrics begin: 'It was the third of June, another sleepy, dusty, delta day.' Interestingly, Billie Joe who threw himself off a bridge had a Scottish surname (MacAllister).  Though I found it mesmerising, my father didn't like the song because it was too 'maudlin'. 

When I was studying my MLitt in Creative Writing jointly between the Universities of Strathclyde and Glasgow in the late 1990s, I wrote a story loosely based on my teenage years, which I called 'Oh Danny Boy'. It's always been my favourite, but I've never tried to have it published because it incorporates song titles and song lyrics and that would cause too many copyright issues for publishers. 

My teenage years were difficult because of a growing sense of isolation. I won't go into that here, but there was a space stretching out between me and the rest of my family. Maybe that's a normal part of growing up.  Add to this my kind, fair and honest father's transformation into Mr Hyde every Saturday night and you have the picture.

My father died on the third of June five years ago. And two years ago, my mother-in-law also 'chose' that date to die. Isn't it weird?  My family's calendar is full of double dates. It makes me wonder if there is a meaning to this life, and these are clues the over-world is sending us if we're there to pick them up.

Anyway, here is 'Oh Danny Boy'. Look for the memory, the nostalgia, the sadness. The Scottish-Irish bloodline. Is there a celebration of life? The adults in this story seize the moment for sharing happiness. Life's to be lived. Fully. In the moment. The 'human condition' says it won't last forever.

Oh Danny Boy 
Danny showed me how to catch bees, out in the fields, in the summer. We spent most of the holidays together, Danny and I. No one ever seemed to wonder where he was.
The sun would fire our necks as we stood with our feet lost in flower heads. We’d walk, our feet dipping carefully through the froth of clover, our eyes on the ground as we searched for the biggest bees. I see us hover, jar in one hand, lid in the other, and trap. Holding their invisible prisons up to the sun, we’d admire our pretty captives, baffled behind their layer of glass. Their wings would drum a flurry on the roof, till we’d lift the lid, and they’d stream out in ribbons of yellow and black.
With Danny I’d range over all the forbidden country, paddling through the burn, swinging on a rope, guessing which were animal holes. With Danny I was never afraid. We’d chew on grass, Danny showing me the stiffest stalks with most juice, and the blades you could hold between your thumbs and blow like a trumpet. We’d walk the school railings like tightropes, run in the out-of-bounds car park, conquer the flat roof of the infant block, and exultantly admire the view. In the summer we were carefree, Danny and I.
            In winter I only saw him at New Year, when we went to visit Grampa.
Grampa was scary, because he sat in his chair by the fire, and didn’t say a word; he’d only grunt. His trousers were shiny on the flat of his thighs, and the two teeth in his mouth were brittle and yellow. He didn’t read the paper, but Danny would shout the stories to him. At Hogmanay my family went to Grampa’s, where my cousin Danny lived.
Soup to put a lining on your stomach. Steak pie and peas before the Bells. The whole house had a bath before the New Year, stuffing corners of towels in their ears. Even Grampa, whose hair was fair and fluffy after all, and wouldn’t be good and lie flat at the crown.
Grampa was an old man who’d had a stroke, Danny told me. But I was still scared of my Grampa. When I talked, I couldn’t seem to make him understand. And Grampa didn’t like the records. They were noisy: Frankie Laine, Patsy Cline, the Beatles and the Stones. He preferred it when his family did the singing.
            Grampa grunts.
            - A song Dad? Here ye go! - Moon river, wider than a mile, I’m crossing you in style, some day, they’d sing, or Saturday night at the movies. Cheerful songs, epics, all the poetry they needed. Sitting in a circle drinking whisky - they can really let their hair down. This is their flat roofs and the burn, this is their bees in the field of clover, this is all time and space rolled into one.
They all like playing ‘colours’. ‘Colours’ is a game, but the pleasure is in playing. There’s no peeling off the wrappers, hoping you can win the prize. Mum starts with The yellow rose of Texas, Uncle Billy is next with Tie a yellow ribbon. That gives Dad an idea, and he sings Scarlet ribbons for her hair, which is an old favourite. The first few are easy - they’ve played this game before, and anyway, for weeks now they’ve been practising, washing the dishes, waiting for the train, Blue moon, you saw me standing alone. Oh my love has got a red, red nose my uncle sings, clowning around, and everybody laughs.
            - What about you hen?
Everyone stops talking and I feel them looking at me. I don’t like anyone to look at me, like I’m a prisoner, caught behind glass.
- Leave her alone, Danny says. She’ll sing in her own time. Who is it?
It’s Mum again. She’s got her make-up on for the party -
             Till the moon deserts the sky
            Till all the seas run dry
            Till then I’ll worship you, dear
            Till -
We throw open the windows for the Bells, and listen to the horns of the ships docked on the Clyde. Then Danny and I slip outside into the New Year. It’s black in the street. Black enough to dance in, to our own choice of music. Round and round we turn like records, spinning on our own spindles till we’re dizzy. I open my eyes, or I close them - there’s nothing but the blackness and the singing, and Danny. Music blurs from the window that is open. I see the music and the laughter waving into the darkness like ribbons - yellow ribbons, scarlet ribbons - the colours that remind us of the summer. We climb on to the school roof and listen to the singing, and look at the windows of the houses all around, some with the lights out, some with the windows wide. This is where we belong. There’s no need to act a part. Then back inside with the company again I sit at my father’s feet -
             Slumber on, my little gypsy sweetheart---
 he sings for me. Then they spin the bottle again and it points to Danny. I smile at him and he winks at me and then he starts to sing a sad song -
             It was the third of June, another sleepy dusty delta day –
 They jeer at him and tell him to stop singing it. He laughs and drinks deep out of his beer glass but I can see that their teasing is hurting him. His hands are shaking and he’s holding his arms rigid. I move over to sit beside him while everyone’s listening to my uncle singing.
- Are you alright? I ask, sliding my hand in under his arm.
- Don’t worry about it, he says and wrinkles up his nose at me. He puts down his glass and tears at the skin around his fingernails.
They don’t like that song because Billie-Joe dies in it. Danny and I like it, but they say it’s maudlin. Top up the whisky glasses. Lie that bottle down, it’s a dead man. Spin the other bottle.
            Auntie Peggy’s going to sing Danny Boy for Grampa. Danny Boy’s his favourite because my grannie used to sing it for him and because it’s his name as well as my cousin’s. Danny looks at his hands while she’s singing and everyone in the house goes quiet.
             And when you come, and all the flowers are dying, if I am dead, as dead I well may be, you’ll come and find the place where I am lying, and kneel and say an ave there for me. And I will hear you softly tread above me, and all my grave shall warmer, sweeter be. And when you kneel and tell me that you love me, I’ll lie in peace until you come to me.

The last time I saw Danny was at Grampa's funeral. He held my hand when I said it would be alright for him to cry, yet it felt like there was something in between us. His hand was cold as glass and his face was pale. I didn't ask what had happened. I thought he was missing Grampa, yet he didn't stay for Grampa's final party. I have to get out of here, he said, and left alone. I watched him from the window. He didn't look back. It was strange to see Danny in the summer, dressed in black.

I’ve got make-up on my face this Hogmanay. Blue round my eyes, and sparkly white stuff beneath them that’s advertised as highlighter. They say it brings out the bones in your puppy fat face. You have to suck in your cheeks to know where to put blusher and make a rosebud mouth when you put your lipstick on. Mum calls it war-paint and sings a silly song.
Danny won’t be there to see me wear it. Mum says Danny preferred to sing alone. Ink on a pin, underneath the skin, an empty space to fill in. No one ever seemed to care where Danny was.

They’re getting drunk at this party. Too drunk but still singing. Out in the dark on my own, I’m not too big for birling. My head and body are birling. Spinning and spinning with my eyes fixed on the sky. Because there’s something in the air, maybe Danny would have sung. Or Baby, baby, baby, we’re out of time.
Blue, I sing. Songs are like tattoos.

These green railings that Danny dared me to walk on I’m holding in my hands now. I can’t climb them without Danny. The bars are iron cold - I hadn’t noticed that before. In the dark the green is black, like the clothes Danny was wearing. No colours any more I want them to turn black. The blisters in the paint scratch my palms and my fingertips. They must have painted these railings when Danny and I were young. Layer upon layer as Danny and I grew. The bars press into my forehead and my mouth is open, but there aren’t any words for this song.

Thursday, 7 February 2013

'Second Chances' on the BBC

Publicity for Second Chances: true stories of living with Addison's disease has taken an upturn.

The major Addison's charities in the UK, the USA, Canada and Australia generously agreed to pass information about the e-book to their members. The UK group will be running a feature about it in their newsletter, and the Australian group will run a feature about Nur, one of the contributors.

The BBC World Service radio programme 'Health Check' have now interviewed me about it, and this interview was first broadcast on 6 February. It'll be repeated on 7 Feb, and will be available as a podcast for 30 days. You'll also be able to 'listen again' to the broadcast on the World Service for a full year. Good news, indeed!

I've listed links at the bottom of this blog post.

It was very exciting, going along to the BBC studios at Pacific Quay in Glasgow to record the interview. For once in my life, I arrived early. It was no hardship to sit in the BBC café, and watch the comings and goings. Was that a star from TV? And were all those people streaming out of one door and into another students on a tour? Then about a dozen members of an orchestra blew in from the windy outside world, clutching their coats and scarves around them, and their battered and well-travelled violin cases.

The BBC studios are beside the river Clyde, which was the former heart of shipbuilding, with one fifth of all ships in the world made there. On the day I visited, the river was silvery and glinting like the window frontage of the neighbouring Glasgow Science Centre and the BBC Scotland building itself.

Soon, I was ushered into the little darkened studio. I was given headphones and a seat, and was pointed to the big yellow microphone for my call to Health Check. I'm not cut out for showbiz in any form, but producer Helena and presenter Claudia quickly set me at ease. The red light went on to show we were recording, and the next fifteen minutes went too quickly. What struck me most was that I couldn't stop myself from repeating the same verbal tics over and over. How many times did I hear myself say, 'Exactly!'? Thankfully, those, and all the 'ahs' and 'ums', were removed after the interview.

The result is a very fine, professional broadcast. Hats off to Helena and Claudia! In eight minutes, we gave a summary of what Addison's is, how it affects people, and how and why I went about compiling the e-book of life writing, Second Chances. The interview also includes mention of Jasmine's story and an excerpt from Hilary's, read by an actor. All in all, it was a very worthwhile experience!

Here are the links:

BBC World Service 'Health Check' interview  (6 Feb 2013 edition. The part about Addison's starts 9.30 minutes in.)

And here's a feature the BBC have written about it, on their Health News pages:

PotHole Press - the publishers of Second Chances: true stories of living with Addison's disease

Addison's Disease Self-Help Group (UK charity)
Canadian Addison Society
National Adrenal Diseases Foundation (USA charity)
Australian Addison's Disease Association 

Also of interest: - set up to raise awareness of Addison's disease after the death of Philip Hart, aged only 22.

Those with secondary Addison's may be interested in USA Pituitary diseases organisation  and the UK's Pituitary Foundation

Biography of Jonathan Fisher, a contributor to Second Chances

Buy Second Chances: true stories of living with Addison's disease 

UK, on Kindle

Worldwide, on Kindle

Worldwide, on Kobo

You can talk about it on Goodreads, too!

Available from ibooks very soon

Second Chances: true stories of living with Addison's disease is an e-book, but you don't need an e-book reader to be able to read it. Just download the free 'app' from the Kindle or Kobo site linked to above, and then you'll be able to read e-books on your computer, laptop, tablet computer or even smartphone!

Wednesday, 28 November 2012

The Next Big Thing

I've been tagged in The Next Big Thing by fellow writer Moira McPartlin (website: whose first novel, The Incomers has recently been short listed for The Saltire Society First Book of the Year Award 2012.

I'm instructed by Moira to tell you all about my next or latest book by answering these questions and then I tag other authors about their Next Big Thing. So here I go!

What is the title of your latest book?
It’s called Second Chances: true stories of living with Addison’s disease. I’m the editor.

Where did the idea come from for the book?
A couple of years ago, I found out I had a rare autoimmune disease called Addison’s. It’s a life-threatening disease, which is a bit scary, so I set out to contact other people who are affected by the condition as I wanted to know how other people deal with it. I invited fifteen to write their story and it’s these which I’ve gathered together, with mine, in Second Chances.

What genre does your book fall under?
It’s creative non-fiction. Life writing. Memoir. Call it what you will.

Which actors would you choose to play your characters in a movie rendition?
Och, Angelina Jolie as me, of course :-)  I suppose my hero partner Keith would want to be James Bond Daniel Craig.  As for the other contributors - they all have amazing stories. There would need to be lots of red carpet stars to play them. From Deanna and Natalia who are long distance runners, to Brett who river races, to Jasmine, who was diagnosed with this life-threatening condition just twelve days after having her baby. And the hospital staff, who were the real heroes, would definitely have more than walk-on parts.

What is the one-sentence synopsis of your book?
Sixteen men and women from across the world seize a second chance when their world is rocked by a deadly disease.

Will your book be self-published or represented by an agency?
It was published on 18 November 2012 as an e-book by PotHole Press, which is a small e-publishing company my husband Keith has set up. Second Chances is available on Kindle and Kobo.  Because Addison’s disease is rare, there isn’t enough of a market for it to be viable through the traditional book publishing model. E-publishing gives it that chance to appeal to Addison's people across a global market.

Here's the link to Second Chances on Kobo

And here it is on Amazon

How long did it take you to write the first draft of your manuscript?
I put out an appeal for contributions via Facebook and other forums in May 2012, and passed the 65,000 word finished manuscript to PotHole Press in October 2012.

What other books would you compare this story to within your genre?
Any that deal with facing illness and refusing to give in to it. 

Who or What inspired you to write this book?
I wanted to hear people talk about how they got their head round this condition. I wanted to know how people seized the second chance modern medicine had given them. But with Addison’s disease being quite rare, there aren’t any books like that out there. There are medical texts, but I wanted to read about people’s experiences. That’s what inspired me to compile it, and I found like-minded people who were happy to share their stories for the benefit of others who are newly diagnosed.

What else about your book might pique the reader's interest?
The contributors come from Canada, the USA, the UK, Belgium, Australia, South Africa and South Korea. There’s some harrowing stuff in there, but there’s also humour, and some mighty emotional highs. It’s real ‘human interest’ stuff and is immensely readable.

Here are some lovely authors I've tagged to tell you about their Next Big Thing! …..

David Manderson – author of Lost Bodies
Leela Soma – author of Twice Born and Bombay Baby
Andrew Doig – author of Wee Davy
Maureen Myant – author of The Search.

Sincere thanks to Moira McPartlin for tagging me. And good luck at the Saltire Awards on St Andrew's Day!

Wednesday, 21 November 2012

Second Chances

When I was diagnosed with Addison's disease a little over two years ago, I felt very isolated. Addison's is life-threatening. Around the world people die from it, and I only survived because I had access to good doctors and modern medicine - steroid hormones to replace the ones my body no longer produces.

Addison's affects only 14 in 100,000 people. So, in Scotland, with its population of five million, there may only be about 700 people who understand it. There are no local support groups, and I really missed being able to speak with fellow Addisonians to find out how they coped with the physical and psychological shock of ill-health, diagnosis and aftercare.

In summer 2012, I put out an appeal on one of Facebook's Addison's groups and set out to commission stories from Addison's people around the world.  I wanted honesty, but I wanted, also, something uplifting. Something that demonstrated that people could be struck down by this illness, but could take control of their new health regime and live a full life.

I was privileged to work with fifteen men and women who shared their experience with me. They shared their stories because they, too, understood that sense of isolation newly diagnosed Addison's people feel, and because they wanted people to know more about this rare condition. In addition, my endocrinologist very kindly supplied the ideal medical preface to the collection.

The contributors come from the UK, Canada, the USA, Belgium, South Africa, Australia and South Korea, and their stories are all different, since their lives are all different. One thing is the same - they all want to make the most of the second chance modern medicine has given them.

That's why I called the collection of our life stories 'Second Chances'. Or, more properly, 'Second Chances: true stories of living with Addison's disease'.

'Second Chances' has been published as an e-book by PotHole Press, and is available on Amazon around the world for Kindle. Versions formatted for I-pad, Kobo and other e-readers will be available soon.

Sunday, 21 October 2012

Feeding the Imagination

I've been teaching and mentoring students of creative writing for (rubs fingers over mouth) years now, so I decided it was high time I put some thoughts together and produced my own little book of hints and tips for writers.

So here it is:

'Creative Writing Prompts to Feed the Imagination' is now available for your Kindle, and if you don't have a Kindle, you can still access it - for less than £1 - if you go to the Amazon page, look to the right hand side and follow the instructions to download one of the free Kindle reading apps. This way, you can read it on your computer or phone. And be inspired by the many prompts and suggestions, such as one-line ideas for stories, poems and autobiographical writing. There are photo prompts, too, and plenty of quirky ideas to get you thinking laterally.

I've included some in-depth help, too, about creating believable characters, about choosing the best viewpoint for telling your stories, and about doing research.

I hope you'll enjoy it! Let me know your thoughts on it, either by commenting here, or by posting a review on Amazon.

Incidentally, I'll be doing a session about e-book publishing at the Scottish Writers' Centre in Glasgow on Wednesday 7 November, at 2pm. Keith, from the PotHole Press, will be there, too. We're looking forward to it! Why not come along to hear our views on the reasons for going down the e-book road? For more information, visit the SWC website or get in touch via the comment facility here :)